TRAIL OF BOBKAT - Confessions of a Tobacco Addict; Part One

It's been two weeks now without smoking tobacco.

To many that may not mean much, but to others, it does. Ironically with tobacco "we're given a choice". Pay the tax, smoke it. Kill yourself. To those who never indulged, you're fortunate. Tobacco is bad stuff.

I have struggled with tobacco addiction since around age 16. From 40 years ago.

I've quit before,  for as long as 3 years, twice... a year or more a couple other times... and always i told myself this was it - the end. But always, the "fix" was everywhere around me, advertising, and state taxes depending on cigarettes being sold. They kill people, and they'll contribute to my death, even though once again I've quit.

2 Weeks Now...

Tobacco truly is a schedule one type drug... the true form of such a drug... but it can't be outlawed, any more than alcohol can be.

I saw my doctor yesterday due to a cough... I have chronic bronchitis, and am going for tests for COPD.

In my early 20's I would have gladly dropped tobacco if cannabis was legal. Today, because each plant is different, and tobacco just happens to be one of the most unhealthy, I'd be pretty healthy if I'd been able to smoke a little pot rather than have a pack or two a day habit for tobacco.

Prohibitive laws are mostly political, not for public safety. The science behind which "drugs" are legal and which aren't is often not based on any science. And no two plants are a like - except for basics like anything burned creates CO (carbon monoxide). Plant tars are a science of itself... no two plants have the same chemistry/tars and the effects of each is different.

It just so happens tobacco is one of the worst plants to use, let alone be addicted to it. Cannabis is one of the safest, but one of the most illegal.

My doctor asked me, considering the rapid success to my not smoking tobacco, if I had cravings for tobacco? I told him no. The reasons:

1) My housemate grossed me out after my other HM dropped a cigarette under her desk, 4 days into my cessation, he found it first and knowing how much it might mean to me, he offered it to me. After he stuck it up his nose.

2) In a previous post I wrote about "K2" type cannabis substitutes that are being marketed. I had said No to them. Well, now I'm saying yes. Compared to the alternative, smoke tobacco, can't get cannabis, "K2 Type" quality smoking products are worth buying; not addictive, herbal in form and mostly safe to use. They get you slightly high, but mostly it's simply pleasant to smoke.

In life we have to make choices. Sometimes we can actually accomplish our goal. Other times, for whatever reason it doesn't work out, or it only works for awhile. For myself  I've always wanted to understand the choices I make, but am at the same time pummeled by opinions and do-gooders that feel they know better.

Yes... this is my autobiography. It is that because I can't pretend to be an entertainer or journalist. I am a writer... and that's what i'm going to do. Write.

It's all fiction... and what? Do you think I'd write the truth about my life? Ironically, though truth is stranger than fiction, fiction based on truth is stranger than life. The reason is, our advanced cognitive abilities creates a paradox of expression, like how do we "be ourselves" if being ourselves means to admit we do things questionable by "society"? Our advanced tools and means of communication make it obvious we are to share... but share what?

If you're within the embrace of the culture - married, with children, college degrees, and "normal" lifestyle, you win. If you're outside of that region, you play the game. Nobody that I know enjoys playing games to survive, but that the way it is. And that is the where of where this autobiography is going to.

I give this country a grade of A for protecting our 1st Amendment rights. I also give Henry V. Miller, recognition and credit for making that a reality... for confronting the right wing extremists who felt they had a legal right to dictate morality and freedom of speech.

The early 20th century was extraordinarily interesting... an interest of mine, let's say.

And the vote of 46% - 54% to legalize cannabis in CA was a victory. After 70+ years of extreme propaganda and ruined lives over a plant that is primarily beneficial, to have 46% of the population of such a large state vote YES, is very significant. I would have been happy with 33%.

To understand my autobiography, you need to understand I'm one of those people that was transformed in a very positive way when introduced to cannabis. I was also one of those people most strongly opposed to it. It makes me wonder if I had been a kid around age 16 in Germany, 1938, if by 1940 I wouldn't have deserted the German Army and gone underground working for the resistance?

What side are you on??? Would you turn your neighbor in for offering you cannabis? Would you see that as similar to murdering your neighbor? Do you see how tobacco, not cannabis, is killing millions of people? Do you see how to make a decision we need the facts?

My autobiography will be anything but boring...

Whether I'm dead tomorrow or 50 years from now (106), my life is my life, and I've not hurt anyone, nor any soul.

I pray I'm alive when cannabis is legal... when terrorists like Eric Holder who threaten the citizens of CA if they vote in a way he doesn't like is gone... good riddance. Our political system is broken... because, We The People don't make the decisions... in many cases, special interests do. A 46-54 % vote to legalize cannabis in CA should be a wakeup call to Washington, and Pres. Obama. You can have your "War on Drugs", Just Leave Cannabis Out of IT!!!

Thanks for visiting...

CA PROP 19 - The Success of Failure From Public Nemesis #1 to a CA Vote of 46 - 54 %...

THE Success of Failure is with Prop 19 in California is mind-bending. How can such a "dangerous drug as marijuana" be endorsed and even procure 46% of CA voters approval? Since 1937 and the Marijuana Tax Act", passed by the US congress to save Americans from the most dangerous drug of all time, in 2010 there seems to be a crack in the Federal Govt's case against cannabis. Not the least of which is that cannabis, known today as marijuana, didn't exist prior to the 1930's, except in Mexico.

Today WE talk and vote on "legalizing marijuana", and it didn't exist until that historic and bogus Tax Act.

Americans call it ganja, and I have the documentation, have posted it, to prove it. Fact being... you can't make war against US citizens over something that has no basis in American history. To do so is unconstitutional, it's a "sting", it's making citizens appear in a place that doesn't exist for the purpose of subjecting them to illegal actions. Laws that violate their right to "Pursuit of Happiness"...

Prop 19 had one major flaw... it's not "marijuana", that's what they call it in Mexico. And I really don't know how many more times i will need to clarify that to honor the history of the United States of America. The proof in the injustice wrought by cannabis prohibition is evident in the name of the bill that made cannabis a prohibited plant... and that is by not making what we Americans called it illegal, but rather by what Mexican's called it.

Wake up people... it's "shadows and mirrors"....

I've been asking the questions for 30+ years about legalizing cannabis... I knew the chance that California's Prop 19 would pass was doubtful. Could always be hopeful, but I know, the very people that enjoy using it and think nothing of it, when asked, will come back with an instinctive - "No Way - It's illegal... I shouldn't be legal, and then in the next breath, well, yes, it's better than drinking or smoking tobacco".

Actually I can be happy Prop 19 didn't pass in CA. Why? Because after 70+ years of this bullshit, that would have been far too easy, after all we people have been through ... if you know what I mean. Think, having the legal right to eat a tomato.

Despite a hugely successful and affective propaganda scam for 70+ years attempting to make cannabis the devil's weed, Prop 19 failed by only a slim number of votes: 54 to 46. The "failed" vote for prop 19 in CA was a victory...

To:  "Gil Kerlikowske's, two-sentence statement on Proposition 19: "Today, Californians recognized that legalizing marijuana will not make our citizens healthier, solve California’s budget crisis, or reduce drug related violence in Mexico. The Obama Administration has been clear in its opposition to marijuana legalization because research shows that marijuana use is associated with voluntary treatment admissions for addiction, fatal drugged driving accidents, mental illness, and emergency room admissions."

Ah, No Gil... you really are desperate to keep your job.

The vote doesn't show or suggest that's how Americans think. It shows nearly half of Americans believe cannabis should be legal, and they don't believe your friggin' crap.

God acts in mysterious ways, and maybe, WE just prevented corporate America from securing rights to growing cannabis for sale and taxation. Maybe, we said NO to corporate America, and Yes, to We The People.

This close vote on Prop 19 should be a wake-up call to Washington... that you're naked when it comes to prohibition of cannabis.

The following link is an example: Alcohol is more dangerous than heroin;   "Alcohol: More Dangerous Than Heroin", Credit: MSNBC

I really didn't want to move to California anyways...

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I'M ON VENUS... or I WAS...

BobKat to Earth...

Hrrrrrrraagaaaeggggg. whattttttttttttttever...

INEED A CIGARETTE!!!!... I'm being held hostage. Must Help,

DISREGARD... No don't disssssssssssss.....

VOTE YES, Hope VOTE YES, CA PROP 19!!! AAAAAARRRRRRRHHHGGGGHHGGHGGHGGHHGHHHGGH

And reference this article found here:

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/39938704/ns/health-addictions/

They'll say i'm insane... I'll be dragged awy... loose my job... my car... my life... I become a DOLL. Gone.

Yeah, the article above as I am PRESENTLY loosing control over my blogger options...

A week without a cigarette...

Auuuuuugh...

Tomorrow... PROP 19 - THE GREEN, from the state of California, and the batlle lines are drawn, and poised...

ERIC HOLDER - US Attorney General: vows to ... "SAN FRANCISCO — Attorney General Eric Holder is warning that the federal government will not look the other way, as it has with medical marijuana, if voters next month make California the first state to legalize pot.

Marijuana is illegal under federal law, which drug agents will "vigorously enforce" against anyone carrying, growing or selling it, Holder said. you can read it here:

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2010/10/15/eric-holder-to-prosecute-_n_764153.html

I've been saying all along the crimes, are not real... the penalties, are not always correct... the victims are many...

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/39938704/ns/health-addictions/

HALLOWEEN 2010 - GRUESOME

Can't upload images... can't contact support. Had a great line-up ready for this Halloween...

But, that's my luck...

Blogger let me down... since I can't upload anything...

Had an exclusive interview with John Miller - "Live from Mexico"...

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That represents his photo, that I can't upload.

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It never fails... when I quit tobacco, things don't work.

VOTE "YES" to PROP 19, no matter where you live!!!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN...